{"id":13419,"date":"2021-09-12T06:46:38","date_gmt":"2021-09-12T10:46:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/?post_type=poetry&#038;p=13419"},"modified":"2021-09-13T07:09:19","modified_gmt":"2021-09-13T11:09:19","slug":"alta-ifland-zhenshina-kotoroj-ne-bylo","status":"publish","type":"poetry","link":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/poetry\/alta-ifland-zhenshina-kotoroj-ne-bylo\/","title":{"rendered":"\u0410\u043b\u044c\u0442\u0430 \u0418\u0444\u043b\u0430\u043d\u0434. \u0421\u0442\u0438\u0445\u043e\u0442\u0432\u043e\u0440\u0435\u043d\u0438\u044f \u0432 \u043f\u0440\u043e\u0437\u0435 \u043d\u0430 \u0442\u0440\u0451\u0445 \u044f\u0437\u044b\u043a\u0430\u0445"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u0420\u043e\u0436\u0434\u0435\u043d\u0438\u0435<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u042f \u0440\u043e\u0434\u0438\u043b\u0430\u0441\u044c \u0432 \u043f\u0440\u043e\u0440\u0435\u0445\u0435 \u0432\u0440\u0435\u043c\u0435\u043d\u0438, \u043c\u043e\u044f \u0440\u0443\u043a\u0430, \u0443\u0446\u0435\u043f\u0438\u0432\u0448\u0430\u044f\u0441\u044f \u0437\u0430 \u043e\u0434\u0443\u0432\u0430\u043d\u0447\u0438\u043a, \u043c\u043e\u0438 \u043d\u043e\u0433\u0438, \u0437\u0430\u0445\u0432\u0430\u0442\u0438\u0432\u0448\u0438\u0435 \u043b\u0438\u0441\u0442\u043e\u043a \u0432\u0438\u043d\u043e\u0433\u0440\u0430\u0434\u0430, \u043c\u043e\u0439 \u043d\u043e\u0441 \u043d\u0430 \u0441\u043f\u0438\u043d\u0435, \u043c\u043e\u0439 \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437 \u043d\u0430 \u043b\u043e\u0434\u044b\u0436\u043a\u0435. \u041b\u0443\u043d\u0430 \u043e\u0442\u0431\u0440\u0430\u0441\u044b\u0432\u0430\u043b\u0430 \u043c\u0435\u0440\u0442\u0432\u044b\u0435 \u0431\u043b\u0435\u0434\u043d\u044b\u0435 \u043b\u0443\u0447\u0438, \u043f\u043e\u0441\u044b\u043f\u0430\u044f \u043f\u0440\u044f\u043d\u043e\u0441\u0442\u044c\u044e \u0441\u043d\u044b \u0441\u043c\u0435\u0440\u0442\u043d\u044b\u0445.<br \/>\n\u041c\u043e\u044f \u043c\u0430\u0442\u044c \u043d\u0435 \u043f\u0440\u0438\u0441\u0443\u0442\u0441\u0442\u0432\u043e\u0432\u0430\u043b\u0430 \u043f\u0440\u0438 \u043c\u043e\u0435\u043c \u0440\u043e\u0436\u0434\u0435\u043d\u0438\u0438. \u0425\u043e\u0442\u044f, \u0432\u043e\u0437\u043c\u043e\u0436\u043d\u043e, \u043e\u043d\u0430 \u0442\u0430\u043c \u0431\u044b\u043b\u0430, \u0438 \u0431\u043e\u043b\u044c, \u043a\u043e\u0442\u043e\u0440\u0443\u044e \u043e\u043d\u0430, \u0440\u0430\u0441\u0442\u0435\u0440\u0437\u0430\u043d\u043d\u0430\u044f, \u0447\u0443\u0432\u0441\u0442\u0432\u043e\u0432\u0430\u043b\u0430, \u043f\u0440\u043e\u0434\u043e\u043b\u0436\u0430\u0435\u0442 \u043f\u0443\u043b\u044c\u0441\u0438\u0440\u043e\u0432\u0430\u0442\u044c \u0432 \u043c\u043e\u0438\u0445 \u0432\u0435\u043d\u0430\u0445.<\/p>\n<p>\u041d\u043e\u0441 \u043d\u0430 \u043c\u043e\u0435\u0439 \u0441\u043f\u0438\u043d\u0435 \u0441\u0442\u0440\u0430\u043d\u043d\u043e \u043e\u0442\u0440\u0430\u0436\u0430\u0435\u0442\u0441\u044f \u0432 \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437\u0443 \u043d\u0430 \u043c\u043e\u0435\u0439 \u043bo\u0434\u044b\u0436\u043a\u0435.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Birth<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I was born in a lapse of time, my hand clinging to a dandelion, my feet gripping a vine leaf, my nose on my back, an eye on my ankle.\u00a0 The moon cast its dead pale rays, sprinkling the mortals\u2019 dreams with a layer of spice.\u00a0 My mother wasn\u2019t present at my birth or maybe she was there and her pain of being torn apart still throbs in my veins.<\/p>\n<p>The nose on my back is reflected in a strange way in the eye on my ankle.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Naissance<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Je suis n\u00e9e en un laps de temps, la main accroch\u00e9e \u00e0 un pissenlit, les pieds agripp\u00e9s \u00e0 une feuille de vigne, le nez dans le dos, l\u2019oeil \u00e0 la cheville.\u00a0 La lune dardait ses rayons de morte p\u00e2le, saupoudrant les r\u00eaves des mortels d\u2019une couche \u00e9pic\u00e9e.\u00a0 Ma m\u00e8re n\u2019\u00e9tait pas pr\u00e9sente \u00e0 ma naissance, ou peut-\u00eatre \u00e9tait-elle l\u00e0 et sa douleur d\u2019\u00eatre d\u00e9chir\u00e9 bat aujourd\u2019hui encore dans mes veines.<\/p>\n<p>Le nez de mon dos se refl\u00e8te bizarrement dans l\u2019oeil de ma cheville.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u041f\u0435\u0440\u0432\u0430\u044f \u0441\u0442\u0440\u043e\u043a\u0430<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u0415\u0441\u043b\u0438 \u0431\u044b \u044f \u043c\u043e\u0433\u043b\u0430 \u043d\u0430\u043f\u0438\u0441\u0430\u0442\u044c \u043f\u0435\u0440\u0432\u0443\u044e \u0441\u0442\u0440\u043e\u043a\u0443, \u043a\u043e\u0442\u043e\u0440\u0430\u044f \u0431\u044b \u043d\u0438\u043a\u043e\u043c\u0443 \u043d\u0435 \u043f\u0440\u0438\u043d\u0430\u0434\u043b\u0435\u0436\u0430\u043ba \u0438 \u043a\u043e\u0442\u043e\u0440\u0430\u044f \u0431\u044b\u043b\u0430 \u0431\u044b \u043f\u043e\u043b\u043d\u043e\u0439 \u043f\u0440\u043e\u0442\u0438\u0432\u043e\u043f\u043e\u043b\u043e\u0436\u043d\u043e\u0441\u0442\u044c\u044e \u0434\u0430\u0432\u0448\u0435\u043c\u0443 \u0435\u0439 \u0440\u043e\u0436\u0434\u0435\u043d\u0438\u0435 \u0436\u0435\u043b\u0430\u043d\u0438\u044e \u043f\u0438\u0441\u0430\u0442\u044c. \u0421\u043c\u0435\u0440\u0442\u0435\u043b\u044c\u043d\u043e\u0435, \u043b\u0435\u0434\u0435\u043d\u044f\u0449\u0435\u0435 \u0434\u044b\u0445\u0430\u043d\u0438\u0435 \u043f\u0440\u043e\u043d\u0438\u0437\u044b\u0432\u0430\u043b\u043e \u0431\u044b \u0435\u0451 \u0438\u0437\u043d\u0443\u0442\u0440\u0438, \u043e\u0431\u0436\u0438\u0433\u0430\u044e\u0449\u0438\u043c \u043f\u0440\u0438\u043a\u043e\u0441\u043d\u043e\u0432\u0435\u043d\u0438\u0435\u043c \u043e\u0441\u0442\u0430\u0432\u043b\u044f\u044f \u043d\u0430 \u043b\u0438\u0446\u0435 \u043a\u0430\u0436\u0434\u043e\u0433\u043e \u0441\u043b\u043e\u0432\u0430 \u0432\u044b\u0440\u0430\u0436\u0435\u043d\u0438\u0435 \u043d\u043e\u0432\u043e\u0440\u043e\u0436\u0434\u0435\u043d\u043d\u043e\u0433\u043e, \u0432\u0441\u0442\u0440\u0435\u0447\u0430\u044e\u0449\u0435\u0433\u043e \u0441\u0432\u0435\u0442 \u0434\u043d\u044f, \u043a\u0430\u043a \u0442\u044c\u043c\u0443. \u0412\u0435\u0441\u044c \u0443\u0436\u0430\u0441 \u0442\u043e\u0433\u043e, \u0447\u0442\u043e \u0432\u0442\u044f\u043d\u0443\u0442\u043e \u0432 \u0431\u044b\u0442\u0438\u0435 \u0432\u0437\u043e\u0440\u0432\u0435\u0442\u0441\u044f \u043d\u0430 \u0438\u0445 \u043b\u0438\u0446\u0430\u0445, \u0438 \u043e\u043d\u0438 \u043e\u0442\u0441\u0442\u0443\u043f\u044f\u0442, \u0443\u0441\u0442\u0440\u0430\u0448\u0435\u043d\u043d\u044b\u0435 \u0433\u043e\u043b\u043e\u0432\u043e\u043a\u0440\u0443\u0436\u0435\u043d\u0438\u0435\u043c \u0431\u044b\u0442\u0438\u044f, \u043a\u0430\u043a \u043f\u0443\u0433\u043b\u0438\u0432\u044b\u0435 \u0440\u043e\u0433\u0430 \u0443\u043b\u0438\u0442\u043a\u0438. \u042f \u0431\u0443\u0434\u0443 \u0432\u0441\u0435\u043c: \u0438 \u0440\u043e\u0433\u0430\u043c\u0438 \u0443\u043b\u0438\u0442\u043a\u0438, \u0438 \u0440\u0443\u043a\u043e\u0439, \u0442\u044f\u043d\u0443\u0449\u0435\u0439\u0441\u044f \u043a \u043d\u0438\u043c, \u0438 \u043c\u043b\u0430\u0434\u0435\u043d\u0446\u0435\u043c, \u043e\u0441\u0442\u0430\u043d\u043e\u0432\u0438\u0432\u0448\u0438\u043c\u0441\u044f \u043d\u0430 \u043f\u043e\u043b\u043f\u0443\u0442\u0438 \u0438\u0437 \u043c\u0430\u0442\u0435\u0440\u0438\u043d\u0441\u043a\u043e\u0439 \u0443\u0442\u0440\u043e\u0431\u044b. \u0418 \u044f \u0431\u0443\u0434\u0443 \u0442\u0435\u043b\u043e\u043c \u043c\u0430\u0442\u0435\u0440\u0438, \u0443\u043c\u0438\u0440\u0430\u044e\u0449\u0438\u043c \u0432 \u0442\u043e\u0442 \u0441\u0430\u043c\u044b\u0439 \u043c\u043e\u043c\u0435\u043d\u0442, \u043a\u043e\u0433\u0434\u0430 \u043c\u043b\u0430\u0434\u0435\u043d\u0435\u0446 \u0432\u0441\u0442\u0440\u0435\u0447\u0430\u0435\u0442 \u043f\u0435\u0440\u0432\u044b\u0439 \u043b\u0443\u0447 \u0441\u0432\u0435\u0442\u0430.<\/p>\n<p><strong>First line<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I wish I could write a first line that belonged to no one and would be the exact opposite of the desire to write that gave birth to it.\u00a0 A deadly, frozen breath would blow through its bowels, sealing with a burning touch each word\u2019s face and imprinting on it the grimace of a newborn who comes into daylight as if into darkness.\u00a0 All the terror of what is dragged into being will explode in these faces, which will then recede, terrified by the vertigo of being, like a snail\u2019s fearful horns.\u00a0 I will be all at once the snail\u2019s horn, the hand reaching toward it and the newborn stopped half-way in the mother\u2019s womb.\u00a0 I will also be the mother\u2019s body, dead at the moment when the newborn meets the first ray of light.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Premi\u00e8re ligne<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Je voudrais \u00e9crire une premi\u00e8re ligne qui n\u2019appartienne \u00e0 personne et qui soit tout le contraire du d\u00e9sir d\u2019\u00e9crire qui l\u2019a fait na\u00eetre.\u00a0 Un souffle de mort lui traversera les entrailles, et la br\u00fblure de ce souffle glac\u00e9 imprimera sur le visage de chaque mot la grimace d\u2019un nouveau-n\u00e9 venu au jour comme on va vers la nuit.\u00a0 Toute la terreur de ce qui est pouss\u00e9 \u00e0 \u00eatre explosera sur ces visages, qui se retireront ensuite, terrifi\u00e9s par le vertige d\u2019\u00eatre, comme les cornes d\u2019un escargot avant m\u00eame qu\u2019on les touche.\u00a0 Je serai \u00e0 la fois, la corne de l\u2019escargot, la main tendue vers elle et le nouveau-n\u00e9 arr\u00eat\u00e9 en mi-chemin dans le corps de la m\u00e8re.\u00a0 Je serai \u00e9galement le corps de la m\u00e8re, mort au moment o\u00f9 le nouveau-n\u00e9 rencontrera le premier rayon de lumi\u00e8re.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u0413\u043e\u043b\u043e\u0441 \u043b\u044c\u0434\u0430<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u042f \u0433\u043e\u0432\u043e\u0440\u044e \u0438\u0437\u043d\u0443\u0442\u0440\u0438 \u0441\u0442\u0435\u0431\u043b\u044f \u0446\u0432\u0435\u0442\u043a\u0430, \u0434\u043b\u0438\u043d\u043d\u043e\u0433\u043e \u0437\u0435\u043b\u0435\u043d\u043e\u0433\u043e \u0446\u0432\u0435\u0442\u043a\u0430, \u0438 \u0441 \u043a\u0430\u0436\u0434\u044b\u043c \u0441\u043b\u043e\u0432\u043e\u043c \u0438\u0437 \u0446\u0432\u0435\u0442\u043a\u0430 \u043f\u0430\u0434\u0430\u0435\u0442 \u043a\u0430\u043f\u043b\u044f \u043f\u0435\u0440\u043b\u0430\u043c\u0443\u0442\u0440\u043e\u0432\u043e\u0439 \u0440\u043e\u0441\u044b \u2014 \u0432 \u043d\u043e\u0447\u0438 \u043e\u043d \u0441\u0442\u0430\u043d\u043e\u0432\u0438\u0442\u0441\u044f \u0433\u0440\u043e\u043c\u0430\u0434\u043d\u044b\u043c \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437\u043e\u043c, \u043d\u0430\u043f\u043e\u043b\u043d\u0435\u043d\u043d\u044b\u043c \u0441\u043b\u0435\u0437\u0430\u043c\u0438. \u041d\u043e \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437 \u043d\u0435 \u043f\u043b\u0430\u0447\u0435\u0442. \u041e\u043d \u0436\u0434\u0435\u0442, \u0437\u0430\u043c\u0435\u0440\u0435\u0432 \u043d\u0430 \u043a\u0440\u0430\u044e \u0441\u043b\u0435\u0437. \u0413\u0434\u0435-\u0442\u043e \u0432\u043e \u0432\u0441\u0435\u043b\u0435\u043d\u043d\u043e\u0439 \u0441\u043b\u0435\u0437 \u043b\u0435\u0434\u044f\u043d\u043e\u0439 \u0432\u0435\u0442\u0435\u0440 \u043e\u0431\u0434\u0443\u0432\u0430\u0435\u0442 \u0438\u0445 \u0438 \u043e\u043d\u0438 \u0437\u0430\u043c\u0435\u0440\u0437\u0430\u044e\u0442, \u043e\u043d\u0438 \u0441\u0442\u0430\u043b\u0438 \u043b\u0435\u0434\u044f\u043d\u044b\u043c\u0438 \u0446\u0432\u0435\u0442\u0430\u043c\u0438, \u0438 \u044f \u0433\u043e\u0432\u043e\u0440\u044e \u0438\u0437\u043d\u0443\u0442\u0440\u0438 \u0441\u0442\u0435\u0431\u043b\u044f \u043b\u0435\u0434\u044f\u043d\u043e\u0433\u043e \u0446\u0432\u0435\u0442\u043a\u0430, \u0438  \u0446\u0432\u0435\u0442\u043e\u043a \u0431\u043e\u043b\u044c\u0448\u0435 \u043d\u0435 \u043f\u043b\u0430\u0447\u0435\u0442. \u042f \u0433\u043e\u0432\u043e\u0440\u044e \u0438\u0437 \u0441\u0442\u0435\u0431\u043b\u044f \u043b\u0435\u0434\u044f\u043d\u043e\u0433\u043e \u0446\u0432\u0435\u0442\u043a\u0430, \u043a\u043e\u0442\u043e\u0440\u044b\u0439 \u0437\u0430\u0441\u0442\u044b\u043b \u0432\u043d\u0443\u0442\u0440\u0438 \u043c\u043e\u0435\u0433\u043e \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437\u0430, \u0438 \u044f \u043d\u0435 \u043c\u043e\u0433\u0443 \u0431\u043e\u043b\u044c\u0448\u0435 \u043f\u043e\u043a\u0438\u043d\u0443\u0442\u044c \u0441\u0432\u043e\u0439 \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437, \u0431\u043e\u043b\u044c\u0448\u0435 \u043d\u0435 \u043c\u043e\u0433\u0443 \u0435\u0433\u043e \u043f\u043e\u043a\u0438\u043d\u0443\u0442\u044c.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Voice of ice<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I speak from inside the stem of a flower, a long green flower, and with each word a dewy pearl falls from the flower, which at night becomes an enormous eye brimming with tears.\u00a0 But the eye doesn\u2019t cry.\u00a0 It waits, at the edge of tears.\u00a0 Somewhere in the universe of tears an ice wind blows on them and they freeze, they are now ice flowers, and I speak from inside the stem of an ice flower, and the flower no longer cries.\u00a0 I speak from inside the stem of an ice flower that has frozen inside my eye, and I can no longer leave my eye, can leave no longer.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Voix de glace<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Je parle de l\u2019int\u00e9rieur d\u2019une tige de fleur, verte et longue, longue et verte, et \u00e0 chaque mot, une perle de ros\u00e9e tombe de la fleur qui pendant la nuit devient un oeil immense noy\u00e9 de larmes.\u00a0 Mais l\u2019oeil ne pleure pas.\u00a0 Il attend, aux bords des larmes.\u00a0 Quelque part, dans l\u2019univers des larmes, un vent glac\u00e9 souffle sur elles, et elles g\u00e8lent, elles sont maintenant des fleurs de glace, et je parle de l\u2019int\u00e9rieur d\u2019une tige de fleur de glace, et la fleur ne pleure plus.\u00a0 Je parle de l\u2019int\u00e9rieur d\u2019une tige de fleur de glace qui a gel\u00e9 dans mon oeil, et je ne peux plus sortir de mon oeil, je ne peux plus sortir.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u041a\u043e\u0441\u0442\u0438 \u0431\u0435\u0437 \u0442\u0435\u043b\u0430<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u041c\u043e\u0438 \u043a\u043e\u043d\u0435\u0447\u043d\u043e\u0441\u0442\u0438 \u043e\u0442\u0432\u0430\u043b\u0438\u0432\u0430\u044e\u0442\u0441\u044f \u043e\u0434\u043d\u0430 \u0437\u0430 \u0434\u0440\u0443\u0433\u043e\u0439. \u0421\u043d\u0430\u0447\u0430\u043b\u0430 \u043e\u0434\u043d\u0430 \u0440\u0443\u043a\u0430, \u043f\u043e\u0442\u043e\u043c \u0434\u0440\u0443\u0433\u0430\u044f. \u041c\u043e\u0438 \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437\u0430 \u0432\u044b\u0432\u0430\u043b\u0438\u0432\u0430\u044e\u0442\u0441\u044f \u0438\u0437 \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437\u043d\u0438\u0446 \u043e\u0434\u0438\u043d \u0437\u0430 \u0434\u0440\u0443\u0433\u0438\u043c. \u041e\u0434\u0438\u043d \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437, \u0434\u0440\u0443\u0433\u043e\u0439 \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437. \u041c\u043e\u0438 \u0432\u043e\u043b\u043e\u0441\u044b \u0432\u044b\u043f\u0430\u0434\u0430\u044e\u0442, \u043a\u043b\u043e\u043a \u0437\u0430 \u043a\u043b\u043e\u043a\u043e\u043c. \u042f \u043d\u0430\u0431\u043b\u044e\u0434\u0430\u044e \u0441\u0432\u043e\u0435 \u0442\u0435\u043b\u043e \u0441\u043e \u0441\u0442\u043e\u0440\u043e\u043d\u044b \u043a\u0430\u043a \u0434\u0435\u0440\u0435\u0432\u043e, \u0441\u0431\u0440\u0430\u0441\u044b\u0432\u0430\u044e\u0449\u0435\u0435 \u043b\u0438\u0441\u0442\u0432\u0443. \u041a\u0442\u043e-\u0442\u043e \u043c\u043d\u0435 \u0433\u043e\u0432\u043e\u0440\u0438\u0442: \u201c\u041d\u0438\u043a\u0443\u0434\u0430 \u043d\u0435 \u0434\u0435\u043d\u0435\u0448\u044c\u0441\u044f\u201d. \u0418 \u043c\u043e\u0438 \u043a\u043e\u0441\u0442\u0438 \u043f\u043e\u0437\u0432\u044f\u043a\u0438\u0432\u0430\u044e\u0442 \u0432 \u043e\u0442\u0432\u0435\u0442, \u0438 \u0443\u0445\u043e\u0434\u044f\u0442 \u0431\u0435\u0441\u0442\u0435\u043b\u044b\u0435, \u043e\u0441\u0442\u0430\u0432\u043b\u044f\u044f \u0440\u0430\u0437\u0434\u0435\u0442\u0443\u044e \u043f\u043b\u043e\u0442\u044c \u043f\u043e\u0437\u0430\u0434\u0438. \u0421\u043e \u0441\u0442\u043e\u0440\u043e\u043d\u044b \u044f \u043d\u0430\u0431\u043b\u044e\u0434\u0430\u044e \u0437\u0430 \u0443\u0441\u043c\u0435\u0445\u0430\u044e\u0449\u0438\u043c\u0441\u044f \u043b\u0438\u0446\u043e\u043c, \u043a\u043e\u0442\u043e\u0440\u043e\u0435 \u043c\u043d\u0435 \u0443\u0436\u0435 \u043d\u0435 \u043f\u0440\u0438\u043d\u0430\u0434\u043b\u0435\u0436\u0438\u0442. \u0418 \u044f \u0442\u0430\u0449\u0443 \u0441\u0432\u043e\u0438 \u043a\u043e\u0441\u0442\u0438, \u0441\u043a\u0432\u043e\u0437\u044c \u043d\u0438\u0445 \u0434\u0443\u0435\u0442 \u0432\u0435\u0442\u0435\u0440, \u0430 \u043a\u043e\u0441\u0442\u0438 \u043f\u043e\u044e\u0442, \u043a\u0430\u043a \u0441\u0447\u0430\u0441\u0442\u043b\u0438\u0432\u044b\u0439 \u0442\u0440\u0443\u043f. \u0418 \u0432 \u043a\u043e\u043d\u0446\u0435 \u043a\u043e\u043d\u0446\u043e\u0432 \u044f \u043e\u043a\u0430\u0437\u044b\u0432\u0430\u044e\u0441\u044c \u0442\u0430\u043c, \u043e\u0442\u043a\u0443\u0434\u0430 \u044f \u043d\u0430\u0447\u0430\u043b\u0430\u0441\u044c. \u041d\u0438\u0433\u0434\u0435.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Bones without a body<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>My limbs are falling one by one.\u00a0 First one arm, then the other.\u00a0 My eyes are falling one by one.\u00a0 One eye, the other eye.\u00a0 My hair is falling bit by bit.\u00a0 From a distance, I watch my body shedding its leaves like a tree.\u00a0 Someone says: \u201cYou won\u2019t get anywhere.\u201d\u00a0 And my bones answer with a glassy jingling, and they are walking away bodyless, leaving the stripped flesh behind.\u00a0 From a distance, I watch the grinning face, which isn\u2019t mine.\u00a0 And I\u2019m dragging the bones the wind blows through, and my bones are singing like a happy cadaver.\u00a0 And in the end I\u2019m where I started.\u00a0 Nowhere.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Os sans corps<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Mes membres tombent un par un.\u00a0 D\u2019abord un bras, ensuite l\u2019autre.\u00a0 Mes yeux tombent un par un.\u00a0 Un oeil, l\u2019autre oeil.\u00a0 Mes cheveux tombent un par un.\u00a0 Du dehors, je regarde mon corps qui se d\u00e9feuille comme un arbre.\u00a0 Quelqu\u2019un dit : \u201cTu n\u2019arriveras nulle part.\u201d\u00a0 Et mes os r\u00e9pondent par un cliquetis de verre, et ils marchent sans corps, laissant la chair \u00e9pluch\u00e9e derri\u00e8re.\u00a0 Du dehors, je regarde la grimace sur le visage qui n\u2019est pas le mien.\u00a0 Et je tra\u00eene apr\u00e8s moi les os parmi lesquels souffle le vent, et mes os chantent comme un mort joyeux.\u00a0 Et \u00e0 la fin je suis toujours au d\u00e9part.\u00a0 Nulle part.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u0416\u0435\u043d\u0449\u0438\u043d\u0430, \u043a\u043e\u0442\u043e\u0440\u043e\u0439 \u043d\u0435 \u0431\u044b\u043b\u043e, \u0438 \u0433\u043e\u043b\u043e\u0441 \u0441\u043e\u043b\u0438.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u0416\u0438\u043b\u0430-\u0431\u044b\u043b\u0430 \u0436\u0435\u043d\u0449\u0438\u043d\u0430. \u0427\u0442\u043e \u0431\u044b \u043e\u043d\u0430 \u043d\u0438 \u0434\u0435\u043b\u0430\u043b\u0430, \u043e\u043d\u0430 \u043d\u0438\u043a\u0430\u043a \u043d\u0435 \u043c\u043e\u0433\u043b\u0430 \u0431\u044b\u0442\u044c. \u0423\u0442\u0440\u043e\u043c \u043e\u043d\u0430 \u043e\u0442\u043a\u0440\u044b\u0432\u0430\u043b\u0430 \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437\u0430 \u0438 \u0441\u043c\u043e\u0442\u0440\u0435\u043b\u0430 \u043d\u0430 \u043f\u0443\u0441\u0442\u043e\u0439 \u043c\u0438\u0440, \u0443\u043d\u0435\u0441\u0451\u043d\u043d\u044b\u0439 \u0432 \u043d\u0435\u0431\u043e \u0431\u0435\u043b\u044b\u043c\u0438 \u0433\u043e\u043b\u0443\u0431\u044f\u043c\u0438, \u043c\u0438\u0440, \u0432 \u043a\u043e\u0442\u043e\u0440\u043e\u043c \u043e\u043d\u0430 \u043d\u0435 \u0431\u044b\u043b\u0430. \u041e\u043d\u0430 \u0445\u043e\u0442\u0435\u043b\u0430 \u043f\u043e\u043a\u0430\u0437\u0430\u0442\u044c \u0441\u0435\u0431\u0435, \u0447\u0442\u043e \u043e\u043d\u0430 \u0435\u0441\u0442\u044c \u0438 \u0434\u043b\u044f \u044d\u0442\u043e\u0433\u043e \u043e\u043d\u0430 \u043e\u0442\u043a\u0440\u044b\u0432\u0430\u043b\u0430 \u0442\u0435\u0442\u0440\u0430\u0434\u0438 \u0438 \u043a\u043d\u0438\u0433\u0438 \u0438 \u0441\u043b\u0435\u0434\u0438\u043b\u0430 \u0437\u0430 \u0437\u043d\u0430\u043a\u0430\u043c\u0438, \u043d\u043e \u043a\u043e\u0433\u0434\u0430 \u043e\u043d\u0430 \u0437\u0430\u043a\u0430\u043d\u0447\u0438\u0432\u0430\u043b\u0430, \u043e\u0441\u0442\u0430\u0432\u0430\u043b\u0438\u0441\u044c \u0442\u043e\u043b\u044c\u043a\u043e \u0442\u0435\u0442\u0440\u0430\u0434\u0438. \u0421\u0430\u043c\u044b\u0435 \u0440\u0430\u0437\u043d\u044b\u0435 \u0432\u0435\u0449\u0438 \u0432\u043e\u043a\u0440\u0443\u0433 \u043d\u0435\u0451 \u043d\u0430\u0441\u044b\u0449\u0430\u043b\u0438 \u0441\u0435\u0431\u044f \u0431\u044b\u0442\u0438\u0435\u043c: 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\u0441\u043b\u043e\u0432\u0430, \u043a\u0430\u043a \u0437\u0430\u043c\u0443\u0440\u043e\u0432\u0430\u043d\u043d\u044b\u0435, \u0437\u0430\u0441\u0442\u0440\u044f\u043b\u0438  \u0443 \u043d\u0435\u0435 \u0432 \u0433\u043e\u0440\u043b\u0435. \u0418 \u0438\u0437 \u0435\u0435 \u0440\u0442\u0430 \u043f\u043e\u0442\u0435\u043a\u043b\u0438, \u0440\u0430\u0441\u0441\u044b\u043f\u0430\u044f\u0441\u044c \u043f\u043e \u0432\u0441\u0435\u043c\u0443 \u0442\u0435\u043b\u0443, \u043a\u0440\u0443\u043f\u0438\u0446\u044b \u0441\u043e\u043b\u0438. \u041d\u0430\u0441\u043b\u043e\u0435\u043d\u0438\u044f \u0441\u043e\u043b\u0438 \u0441\u0442\u0430\u043d\u043e\u0432\u0438\u043b\u0438\u0441\u044c \u0432\u0441\u0435 \u0432\u044b\u0448\u0435 \u0438 \u0432\u044b\u0448e, \u043e\u043d\u0438  \u043f\u043e\u043a\u0440\u044b\u043b\u0438 \u0435\u0435 \u0431\u0435\u0434\u0440\u0430, \u0435\u0435 \u0436\u0438\u0432\u043e\u0442, \u0435\u0435 \u0433\u0440\u0443\u0434\u044c, \u0435\u0435 \u0440\u043e\u0442, \u0435\u0435 \u0433\u043b\u0430\u0437\u0430. \u041f\u043e\u043a\u0430 \u043d\u0435 \u043e\u0441\u0442\u0430\u043b\u0441\u044f \u043b\u0438\u0448\u044c \u0441\u043c\u0443\u0442\u043d\u043e \u043d\u0430\u043f\u043e\u043c\u0438\u043d\u0430\u044e\u0449\u0438\u0439 \u043e \u043d\u0435\u0439 \u0441\u0438\u043b\u0443\u044d\u0442, \u0432\u0435\u0441\u044c \u0441\u043e\u0441\u0442\u043e\u044f\u0449\u0438\u0439 \u0438\u0437 \u0441\u043e\u043b\u0438.<\/p>\n<p><strong>The woman who wasn\u2019t and the voice of salt<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Once there was a woman, who, whatever she did, could not be. In the morning she opened her eyes on an empty world carried into the sky by white doves, a world where she wasn\u2019t. She wanted to show that she was, so she opened notebooks and books and she began to trace signs, but in the end only the notebooks were there. Around her, all kinds of things busied themselves with being: tomatoes, shoes, clothes lying around, even a computer. But she, no, she wasn\u2019t. In the afternoons she sat on a deck chair and watched through the climbing kiwi vines the foamy waves of the ocean, listening to the sounds like faraway voices breaking on the rocks. Sea lions or sirens? Her eyes moistened in sympathy with the ocean of blue mist. And she tried once more to show that she was and opened her mouth to talk, but the words stopped in her throat, walled up. And out of her mouth grains of salt began flowing, piling up all around her body. And the pile grew higher and higher\u2014it covered her hips, her belly, her breasts, her mouth, her eyes. In the end, only a shape vaguely resembling her was left, all salt.<\/p>\n<p><strong>La femme qui n\u2019etait pas et la voix de sel<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Il y avait une fois une femme qui, quoi qu\u2019elle f\u00eet, ne pouvait \u00eatre.\u00a0 Le matin, ses yeux scrutaient un monde vide emport\u00e9 aux nues par des colombes blanches, un monde o\u00f9 elle n\u2019\u00e9tait pas.\u00a0 Elle voulait montrer qu\u2019elle \u00e9tait, alors elle ouvrait des cahiers et des livres et elle se mettait \u00e0 tracer des signes, mais \u00e0 la fin il n\u2019y avait que les cahiers qui \u00e9taient l\u00e0.\u00a0 Autour d\u2019elle, toutes sortes de choses s\u2019empressaient \u00e0 \u00eatre : tomates, chaussures, v\u00eatements tra\u00eenant par terre, m\u00eame un ordinateur.\u00a0 Mais elle non, elle n\u2019\u00e9tait pas.\u00a0 L\u2019apr\u00e8s-midi elle s\u2019asseyait sur une chaise-longue et regardait, par la br\u00e8che taill\u00e9e dans le feuillage de kiwi, les vagues \u00e9cumeuses de l\u2019oc\u00e9an, en \u00e9coutant les sons<strong>\u00a0<\/strong>tels des voix lointaines qui se brisaient sur la gr\u00e8ve rocheuse.\u00a0 Lions de mer ou sir\u00e8nes?\u00a0 Ses yeux se voilaient en sympathie avec l\u2019oc\u00e9an de brume bleue.\u00a0 Et elle t\u00e2chait encore une fois de montrer qu\u2019elle \u00e9tait et ouvrait la bouche pour parler, mais les mots s\u2019arr\u00eataient dans sa gorge, emmur\u00e9s.\u00a0 Et de sa bouche commen\u00e7aient \u00e0 couler des grains de sel qui s\u2019empilaient tout autour de son corps.\u00a0 Et le tas montait et montait, il couvrait ses hanches, son ventre, ses seins, sa bouche, ses yeux.\u00a0 \u00c0 la fin, il ne resta d\u2019elle qu\u2019une forme qui lui ressemblait vaguement, toute en sel.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<br \/>\n<em> \u0410\u043d\u0433\u043b\u0438\u0439\u0441\u043a\u0438\u0435 \u0438 \u0444\u0440\u0430\u043d\u0446\u0443\u0437\u0441\u043a\u0438\u0435 \u0442\u0435\u043a\u0441\u0442\u044b \u2014 \u043e\u0431\u0430 \u0430\u0432\u0442\u043e\u0440\u0441\u043a\u0438\u0435; \u043f\u0435\u0440\u0435\u0432\u043e\u0434 \u043d\u0430 \u0440\u0443\u0441\u0441\u043a\u0438\u0439 \u0415\u043a\u0430\u0442\u0435\u0440\u0438\u043d\u044b \u0411\u0435\u043b\u043e\u0443\u0441\u043e\u0432\u043e\u0439. <\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":13495,"parent":0,"template":"","poetry-type":[78],"class_list":["post-13419","poetry","type-poetry","status-publish","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","poetry-type-prose_poetry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/poetry\/13419","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/poetry"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/poetry"}],"version-history":[{"count":23,"href":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/poetry\/13419\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14084,"href":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/poetry\/13419\/revisions\/14084"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/13495"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13419"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"poetry-type","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eastwestliteraryforum.com\/rus\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/poetry-type?post=13419"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}